Coming Out With It
I've decided to come clean with most everything I can come clean about in regards to this site.
The truth is, I don't work downtown anymore. I haven't for some time now. If you want specifics, then go elsewhere because you won't get them here.
I did my time in the bar scene...the better part of 6 years, actually. I did it all. I saw just about everything I could possibly imagine to see, worked with some of the finest people I've ever met, and was a part of something fun and special from time to time.
But the bottom line is that it wore on me. I couldn't do it forever. I certainly gave it my best shot, and I tried several bars on for size to see which one fit me the best, but the truth is, none of them did. I outlived my love of working downtown, and my love turned into frustration and anger at the point in life that I had found myself in.
I was frustrated at the never ending stream of bullshit I put up with every night, frustrated at my lack of ability to do something else of importance with my life, frustrated that I could never make a difference in every drunk college kid who annoyed me, and mostly frustrated that I could never make a difference in myself. At least while maintaining my employement downtown.
I took my frustrations and turned them into aggression that I let loose on nights I worked. I hurt people, most who deserved to be hurt. I'm not sorry for those. The only thing I regret are those I hurt who could have just walked away. Someone else would have dished out justice to them somewhere else along the way, I'm sure. But it ended up being me.
I simply didn't like what I had turned into, and I didn't like the road I had found myself on. So I don't work down there anymore. In fact, I don't even live in Athens anymore. I've left.
I visited downtown recently, and found the same things going on as when I left. I wasn't amused. I tried it back on for size for a little bit, and found it to be uncomfortable. I had made the right choice.
So it isn't fair for me, or anyone who reads this blog, to continue on like I still work downtown. I don't. I'm a former employee now, thank God. So updates will be few and far between at this point. I don't have the motivation or interest to continue on with all things downtown Athens. I'm not a part of it and I - hopefully - never will be again.
However, I've decided to post a few stories that have happened in the past, without any kind of editing, in the near future. Check back from time to time and you may be pleasantly surprised.
My time downtown was fun, drunken, scary, violent, exciting, and most of all, it's all over.